It was just after our 12 week ultrasound when we walked in to one of our favourite cafes for a celebratory decaf when this particular song came on. We had just heard and seen the good news on the screen that was our new little being. And all was thankfully very well.
The ultrasound itself had also just revealed some big news, by way of a suspicious looking package "downstairs" - and that was that this new little life would be a new little boy. Our son. So the tune blaring over the cafe loudspeaker really couldn't have been more appropriate - The Pixies, Here Comes Your Man.
We played this song a lot to Angus as he was growing big and strong in my belly. And the morning he was to be born as we got ready to leave for hospital, we played it again.
Angus was born via c-section at 10.46am on Tuesday 17 November, 2009 after making the decision with our ob at our appointment the afternoon before that this is how he would enter the world. I'll post a more detailed birth story in the days (weeks? months?) ahead when I find the time (when exactly will that be, I wonder?) It obviously wasn't quite what we thought or hoped it might be, but in the end it didn't matter one little bit. I wouldn't change a single thing about it. He's here, and he's alive. And he let out one mighty roar when he left my belly. That was the sweetest sound and made those nine months of hell in the lead up to his birth worth every tear and every second of worry.
He has brought us more joy in his first 10 days of life than we thought possible. And this is only the very beginning. He has also taught us a bazillion and one lessons as we continue to fumble our way along live-baby parenthood. Very different to deadbaby parenthood but I can assure you, a crap load easier. Even as I sit here, with open wounds on my nipples!
Our little bundle doesn't really cry. Just grizzles for a feed and when he has a bit of wind. The only way we know his lungs actually work is when he has a nappy change. I am pretty much just the milk lady for now while daddy takes on the bulk of the changing and settling, not to mention the cooking and cleaning. Did I mention how lucky I was? Mum has also been here nearly every other day to pick up the slack. And cuddle Angus just once more, because that's what Nannys do. When all the visitors clear out for the day, I try and sneak in some extra cuddles of my own. I really am still pinching myself. How did I get here? How did he get here?
I also need to take the time to thank Carly for keeping this place up to date while we were in hospital and informing everyone of our good news. I was sending her texts as often as I could with snippets of information and the odd crappy mobile phone photo here or there. We of course took many photos of Angus in hospital and Hope's ACOCP photographer came in to capture our new family as well. And Carly, being the angel she is, has put this video together for us! She's a gem, not to mention very clever. It would have taken me months to figure out how to do this!
So, here comes our man. Please enjoy.
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Beautiful! I am so happy for you!
ReplyDeletewhen i stop crying i will write a proper comment! just thrilled for you xxxx
ReplyDeleteOMG what a great video. I kept thinking 'this is my favorite picture. No wait, this one.' Love them all. The ones with Hope's name near him gave me chills. Wishing you a wonderful babymoon - try Soothies for the girls (water-based gel pads to apply between feeding)
ReplyDeletelove love love love love love xxxx
ReplyDeleteSorry haven't got a card in the mail for you guys, but am so very happy for you. Love the little vid, and the music is so fitting and upbeat! You look so happy, and I love it.
Sending you all excited jumps and happy hugs!
xxx
Oh Sally, I have tears streaming down my face! You all look so beautiful and such joy at seeing your little man, grogeous Angus. That smile on Simons face, it has taken my breath away. And you look radiant.
ReplyDeleteMuch much happiness to you all. Hope is smiling down on her family today xxx
I am so very happy for you all.
ReplyDeleteOh he is beautiful. Just beautiful...
ReplyDeleteAnd there is so much joy in being a milk mamma. :) I call Peter the milk man, since he delivers breastmilk to the fridge or to the babies via bottle. :)
He is just so gorgeous! I'm so happy for you!
ReplyDeleteWell now you've gone and got me crying big ole crocodile tears!!!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful Sally, just beautiful! I have always loved that song, and from here forward its now Angus' song. Great work Carly - what an amazing friend.
And, can I just say the thing that struck me most about the photos (well, other then Mr. Glorious Cuteness!) was YOUR SMILES - you guys were just radiant. I love it. I have no doubt that Hope is smiling with pride at her beautiful brother.
Sending so much love to you...
xoxo
Are your nipples getting bitten off too?!
ReplyDeleteHe is beautiful Sally! I'm excited that we can have this journey with out newest little ones together.. even if we are half way around the world.
Golly gosh you sure know how to make a girl 'well up' but happy happy tears. Fantastic pics and I love the little green Bonds outfit. Morgan has that one too. So happy for you!! xx
ReplyDeletewow, so beautiful! I can't express how pleased I am for you!!
ReplyDeleteA handsome little bugger indeed! And I am tickled that he shares his birthday with my Cason, one year apart, but still, I love it!!! Soul brothers:)
ReplyDeleteEnjoy being the milk lady, it is so wonderful to have that time with your little man in the quiet hours of the night especially.
I am so happy for you, just so happy.
xxoo
that video is amazing. carly is so talented.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations. I am so os happy for all of you. he is a very handsom little boy.
I am really happy for you.
ReplyDeleteSally I can't get over how breathtakingly gorgeous Angus is. He is an absolutely perfect baby. I'm so happy for you and Simon, that after suffering through so much pain, you have a beautiful child at home at last. Hugs and Squishes on his perfect cheeks...
ReplyDeletewhat a touching video! You both look so happy, and i'm so happy for you!! He is such a darling!!! Congrats!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI am just so happy for you Sally x
ReplyDeletePerfect, perfect, perfect. xxx
ReplyDeleteI'm so so happy for you all. you do look so radiant, there are photos where your eyes are dancing with joy, and that's so good to see.
ReplyDeleteLove the soundtrack, one of my fave songs ever. I was dancing and crying.
I love this song. And now I will love it even more because it will remind me of Angus!
ReplyDeleteAnd I am such a mess having watched this video. Somehow grinning my head off and cry my eyes out at the same time. Jessica is doing a little wibbly dance to the Pixies and staring at your video. Now she's staring at me wondering what on earth is happening to her mama. I'll explain to her one day why I am so good at smiling and crying simultaneously.
Much much much love to you all. xoxo
Sally, I watched the video with great pleasure. It was awesome to see you guys beaming and smiling like never before! And lil Angus is a beautiful sweetheart - especially in that green-white onesie. :)
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Beautiful Sally. You guys look wonderful! Angus is such a cutie!
ReplyDeleteI have always loved that song and now it will always make me think of Angus.
ReplyDeleteThe photos are beautiful but what I noticed the most was your SMILES!. I can't tell you how happy it makes me to see that! Of course, I am crying now after seeing that video but they are tears of joy for sure.
I also loved how Hope was there too - I am sure that she loves her little bro as much as you do.
Thank you for sharing this journey with us. It gives me hope that one day, I can maybe do it too.
Sending massive amounts of love across the ocean...
I am crying out of shear happiness
ReplyDeletethinking of all of you during this amazing time
Happy, happy tears for you all! What a precious, precious video. He is just stunning, just like his sister!
ReplyDeleteLove to you
He is beyond precious! I am so glad that he is at home and healthy and happy!
ReplyDeleteYou enjoy this time, you've earned it.
My Ivy weighed the same thing!
Congratulations sally and simon. So relieved and happy for you.
ReplyDeletePerfect boy.
ReplyDeleteAnd your smiles... so good to see.
xxx
He's perfect. You're all perfect. xo
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! You are simply glowing!
ReplyDeleteGreat video! Brought tears to my eyes. You all look so happy and I am so happy for you. (Can't wait to get there with you.)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations again. Much love to you and your family.
smiles and tears...
ReplyDeleteangus is so beautiful and the love is palpable.
i am so happy for you.
xoxo
Oh, Sally! He is just such a lovely big bundle of pinky handsomeness. What a sweet boy Angus is! I'm so happy for you.
ReplyDeleteBTW: Highly recommend the Lanolin cream - here the brand is Lansinoh - for the wounded nips (you probably already know that, but just in case). If you want to see video clips of getting a good latch in different positions for nursing, www.breastfeeding.com is a fabulous resource. Also has all the Dr. Newman reference pages. xoxo
A beautiful, beautiful boy - and a gorgeous video for you to cherish too. I sobbed and sobbed my way through it (like many of us, it seems!) I don't think I need to say enjoy the baby moon - it's so obvious from your smiles that you both are. And you are so right Sally - you make GORGEOUS babies :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful video.. What a beautiful family.. He is one lucky boy to have parents like you and to have Hope watching over him.. I am SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!
ReplyDeleteOMG! that made me cry soooooo much. I am so happy for you guys.
ReplyDeleteIt gives me hope for the future. That one day i might be that happy again too!
Tears of joy.
ReplyDeleteSo many beautiful moments captured. So many more to come.
Love all the reminders of Hope in the video. Just amazing.
Isn't he fabulous! One of my favourite songs ever. I'll always think of Hope and Angus whenever I hear it now.
ReplyDeleteHe is adorable and I am so happy for you. It's nice to hear that you are smiling.
ReplyDeleteThe slideshow is wonderful. What a beautiful little boy. So happy!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing these beautiful moments with us. We prayed so hard along with you during your pregnancy, and it is wonderful to see our prayers answered in your little miracle, your sweet Angus. Congrats and God bless to you all. He looks just like you Momma!
ReplyDeleteLoved seeing pics of Angus and you and Simon- just beautiful, so heartwarming.
ReplyDeleteSo thrilled for you guys xx
I am so, so happy for you! I've been thinking about you for days and couldn't find the bookmark for your blog. I'm keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers. He's a beautiful little man! Congratulations :)
ReplyDeleteI was so blubbery when I read this post and watched the video last night I couldn't even type to comment. Thought about all four of you when I was waking up this morning with a big smile on my face.
ReplyDeleteSeriously, could Angus be any cuter? Those cheeks! I just want to gobble him up.
And you look radiant Mama! The smiles on your and Simon's faces say it all.
Love, love the photo of you kissing Thumper's little feet! And the two of his arms outstretched really cracked me up - its like he is saying "hello world, I am THIS BIG". Too cute.
:) xoxo
Love those chubby cheeks! Great for kissing ;-).
ReplyDeleteThat Pixies song is one of my favs... good choice.
So many blessings to you, hubby, and Angus.
ps I needed to hear this line more than you can imagine: "That was the sweetest sound and made those nine months of hell in the lead up to his birth worth every tear and every second of worry".
I love the video. What a great keepsake and you can show it to him when he's older. Wow!!
ReplyDeleteThe smiles on your faces are sublime. Enjoy your babymoon together...
This is awesome...SOOOO happy for you and your beautiful new son. Keep the updates coming!
ReplyDeletewhat a gorgeous video....he is just so beautiful. Love the photo of all three of you, with Hope name next to her brother. Thanks Carly for showing us Hope's new brother. So good to see you happy.
ReplyDeletelots of hugs and love sent your way.
OMG! I could list EVERY photo as a favorite!
ReplyDeletesimon with angus with hope's tattoo... sally kissing his feet.. angus with hope's headstone in the background, angus with the hope necklace in the background. oh! i just love them all! it is just so inspiring for me.. thank you for sharing your story.
the best part is for you to say that bringing your newborn home and taking care of him is so much easier than grieving a lost one. i am just beside myself right now.
so much love to you.
He is beautiful. Yes, life with a newborn is so much easier than life after a newborn dies.
ReplyDeleteSo happy for you! We are expecting a new "hope" baby in late February after the loss of our full term baby daughter, Sylvia last February. You are our hope! Thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteSending you love from the States!
--Beth
houselogfamily.blogspot.com
Gorgeous. Simply gorgeous.
ReplyDeleteCongrats you guys, it is so great to see you all looking so happy (and tired :))
ReplyDeleteGreat pictures.
That's just perfect!!!
ReplyDeleteWhat a handsome little man.
that was great! nice work carly!
ReplyDeletei love seeing your beautiful smiles, you deserve every second of happiness. love you! xo - give angus a huge kiss from me please.
I found your blog sometime this summer, so I haven't been reading you for that long. Long enough to know, I suppose, that I have never seen a truly happy smile on your face so seeing that first picture of you really, really smiling made me smile myself. I am so very happy for you.
ReplyDeletedelurking to wish you such joy, love, and happiness... what a wonderful new beginning. congratulations.
ReplyDeleteI have never seen such beautiful faces full of love for their little man. Congratulations, and I can't wait to watch this little guy grow!
ReplyDeleteoverflowing with smiles for you!
ReplyDeletefan-flippin'-tastic! thank you for sharing him with us. you all look wonderful. very very happy for you. xo
ReplyDeleteOh Sally that is so beautiful. Words can't express how happy I am for you. You are truly inspirational and I am so glad you shared it with us. You are radiant in those pictures. And there is so much love in them, too. Hugs to you from across the globe.
ReplyDeleteOh the tears!! THE TEARS!!! I am over the moon for you.
ReplyDeleteOMG I didn't see the video earlier. Wow wow wow..the tears are streaming! He's just beautiful Sally.. he's an amazing and wonderful wonderful little man. Cna't stop crying with happiness :):):)
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He is absolutely gorgeous! I just came across this blog today. I read Hope's story and skipped around up to the point of you announcing your pregnancy with Angus. You got your wish, He brought with him a little bit of his sister, Their pictures are so close! CONGRATULATIONS!
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