August.
August used to be the eight month of the year.
It used to be the end of winter.
The month before spring.
The month before my birthday.
The month of my dad's birthday. Mother in law's birthday. Grandmother's birthday and the birthday of a few friends' babies.
It was the month of a wine festival in my home town.
It was the last month of the football season before finals.
The month Simon and I left for Europe in 2006 on the holiday of a lifetime.
It was just a month. Any old month. Nothing overly sentimental attached to it. No painful memories associated it. Just a month. Just another bloody month.
Now August will forever be the month my first child died.
It will also be the month she was born. In that order.
It will always be the month my life was completely turned on it's head.
The month my heart was broken.
August. How is it that you are here again?
Wild Garden Questions
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ReplyDelete(((Hugs))) ~ I feel that way about March.
ReplyDeletexoxo
ReplyDeleteI'm still afraid of how many more Augusts we'll have to get through. Thinking of you and Hope and sending love.
ReplyDeleteBeen thinking of you and Hope a lot lately, Sal. Extra hugs this month.
ReplyDeleteI don't know how its here either Sal. May is the same for me too. Don't get me started on the complexities of December, a month supposed to be full of miracles and magic and joy. Ha!!!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you guys heaps Sal and I will be lighting candles for your beautiful Hope. xxxooooxxoxoxoxoxoxox massive hugs
I wish August would be another boring old month but I know it is not. ((hugs)) thinking of you mightily.
ReplyDeleteAugust is our C.'s birth month too. And it's now forever associated with her and everything our lives have become since we lost her.
ReplyDeleteSending love x
ReplyDeleteIt does come up ridiculously fast, no? We're coming up on year three this month and, though it's gotten easier with time, I still feel like I'd prefer to stay in bed most days.
ReplyDeleteBest to you.
thinking of you and beautiful Hopex
ReplyDeleteI don't know how it happens either. The month just sneaks up on you and slaps you in the face. December is our month. Lovely to associate what should be such a joyous month with such a tragic period in my life.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. xxx
Love you Sal x
ReplyDeletegreat big ((hugs)) for this month.
ReplyDeletehugs and love... hugs and love...
ReplyDeleteAugust and January can go jump in the lake. Thinking of you . . . xo
ReplyDeleteUntil three years ago, August always seemed to be the perfect month for me. But ever since it hasn't been the same. I hate that I'm basically wishing summer away... but what can I do?
ReplyDeleteSomehow we'll make it through this month.
Sending you an enormous hug! xx
((((((((hugs))))))))
ReplyDeleteSending so much love, darling Sall xx
ReplyDeleteI have Hope's birthday on my calendar at work. If u don't mind sending your address I'd like to send her a card <3
ReplyDeletehugs....thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteJust wanting to say that I'm thinking of you and your beautiful Hope and your sweet Angus always, but especially through August.
ReplyDeleteHugs, friend.
much love and hugs during this month
ReplyDeletemy heart hurts just reading this - thinking of you and hope today and always
I hear you, Sally. We'll get through this somehow, thinking of you and Hope. xoxo
ReplyDeleteAugust... the beginning of the fall here. Thinking of you today, hoping that this August is just a little more tolerable.
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Sarah
Thinking of you Sally!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, this difficult month Sally.
ReplyDeleteYour children are beautiful. I enjoy your blog so much; you are a wonderful writer.
ReplyDeleteLove to you, Sally.
ReplyDeleteUnbelievable that it's here already. Missing her with you, Sal. Every day.
ReplyDeleteI lost my dad in August. This month is never easy. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteI was thinking about you and Hope yesterday while i was at the zoo. (it's also my boyfriend's birthday) sending lots of love.
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christy
Thinking of you Sally xo
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