We did so much together, me and my girl, entangled in the same skin. Among them, we went to five weddings. I was a bridesmaid at one.
We went interstate three times. Two plane trips – one to the other side of our big country to visit my siblings in Karratha, where they have both lived for the past couple of years and one to our island state Tasmania for a beautiful and relaxing weekend. There was also a nine hour road trip to Sydney, not long after she came in to existence, to spend New Year’s Eve watching the fireworks with friends on Sydney harbour. Road trips and first trimesters are not a good idea though, let me be clear on that. But I can look back now and smile.
We met lots of other babies who were born, all while Hope was waiting to be born.
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And we generally just had lots of fun together. These few images, really only just scratch the surface in terms of all we did during those special nine months.
I miss her, and I miss my innocence just as much. I’m so glad I got to experience so much with her though, even if it was so tragically short-lived.
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I liked seeing you so happy. I wish you could have that back too, Sally. Much love.
ReplyDeleteSeeing these pictures broke my heart all over again, Sal. I'm so sorry Hope isn't with you. I know her times out of the belly would've been even grander than the ones you experienced together when she was within you. Sending so much love. xo
ReplyDeleteI miss that innocence too, Sally.
ReplyDeleteI miss the innocence too...such happy times...
ReplyDeleteMe, too. I miss that innocence, too. :(
ReplyDeleteYou look so blissfully happy.
I am glad you have all of those photos.
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Those pictures are so beautiful. I think you can tell the difference between before and after photos. I think we had a different light in our eyes before we lost our babies. I'm glad you have all these to pictures to cherish. I'm sure you ladies had so much fun together. Missing Hope with you!
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I love it. Thanks for sharing all those special times!
ReplyDeleteI love the photos Sally. I'm glad you have these. Craig and I have fond memories of all trips "with" our babies too. :-)
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I miss it too, Sal.
ReplyDeleteI miss smiling at the camera and having that smile reach my eyes. We all look so different now that we are babylost. We can smile but it's not the same.
I wish you could be the same people again in those photos but I know it will never happen...so instead I wish to one day see the smile touch your eyes.
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I love you so much Sally x
ReplyDeleteHow gorgeous you are. I wish too that you could have back that happiness. xxx
ReplyDeleteIt's good to see the happy, innocent Sally, Simon and Hope.
ReplyDeleteI miss the expectation, the innocence and the fulfilment.
I wish it wasn't so.
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What beautiful pictures... And the innocence... I want that back too.
ReplyDeleteLooks like you girls had lots of adventures, and got to play dress up so many times! I am so sorry that she is not here for more. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteWhat beautiful pictures and bittersweet memories. I feel for your loss and your fears with this new baby and birth experience. I pray you have a healthy and happy delivery. How brave of you to share your story in the Melbourne paper. You've no doubt helped so many women. (((Hugs))) from a grieving mum in Canada.
ReplyDeleteLoss of innocence is one of the hardest parts, I think.
ReplyDeleteYou look so lovely.
I miss it, too. I love these photos - the sheer happiness on your face is beautiful, Sally. I wish Hope was still with you, still sharing in travels and good times.
ReplyDeleteYou have so many amazing picture of you and Hope together. I have only a few with my girls and I cherish them. What happy times these were.
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Tina
What beautiful pictures of you and Hope. Beautiful mama, beautiful Hope. xoxo
ReplyDeleteYou are glowing in those pictures. I love that. I guess that's the innocence of it all, knowing some day we're going to have a baby. Little did we know, they weren't ours to keep.
ReplyDeleteI miss the innocence then, I was so happy...
i LOVE this pictures, sally. you are gorgeous and the pix really say it all. i can't believe none of us are going to get that back - i can only pray we get some kind of deeper joy, understanding, appreciation of life out this... that's what supposed to happen, right? i hope??? love to you!
ReplyDeleteThe pictures are lovely. And you are right on, even after having had two babies before and now one after, my innocence is shattered. Things will never be the same.
ReplyDeleteThese pictures make me so sad, even though - as your other readers point out - you look happy and lovely. What an awesome photo-tour of your life with Hope.
ReplyDeleteI miss the optimism I felt when I was pregnant with Akul. I wonder how I can get that back. You look beautiful and happy in these pictures.
ReplyDeleteThis just made me so sad.
ReplyDeleteLife is a real shit sometimes!
Hugs
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Sally - such gorgeous photos and wonderful memories. I'm so glad that you have them.
ReplyDeleteLove to you.
you guys look so flippin cute together!
ReplyDeletei just sent a post out on facebook asking everyone for any pictures that they had of me pregnant, cuz those are the only good times i had with her. i'll never have anymore pictures with her and it kills me. when i became pregnant with Leila my circumstances were so that i couldn't fully enjoy my pregnancy; matt and i were separated for 5 months. i did love being pregnant, it was wonderful, but there was always a sadness because matt was so far away. now i'm so sad that i will never have the chance to have a truly blissful pregnancy. that just sucks so much. :(
i love looking back at your time with hope. what a sweet way to remember her. i have been calling it birthday too- not anniversary. i think i only want to consider it a bday and nothing else.
ReplyDeletei just wrote about the innocence too, but mine is a little different. i need to ponder my time with silas like you did with hope, it is such a wonderful way to honor our babies.
xo love you sal
Beautiful photos of the 3 of you. I do the same thing Sally.. remember all the wonderful things fun things we did. The trips, the laughing, the singing and dancing at the weddings. It somehow keeps me peaceful.
ReplyDeleteLosing the innocence just plainly sucks.
What beautiful photographs.
ReplyDeleteI also keep a little list of things that G 'did.' I feel strongly that she did them even if she was not yet born.
I wish that you could have that innocence back. xx
I am so sorry. The photos are so beautiful and full of hope. I do love the photo of you and your husband by the bookcase. Life can be so perfect one day and drop you so fast into hell. ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteSally, I missed this post somehow until now. I'm looking at these pictures and thinking somebody should put together a babyloss photo exhibit of the innocent pregnancy and the subsequent pregnancy. You can see it all in the eyes. I have noticed this with others too. Even with smiles, it's all in the eyes. Love seeing both kinds of pictures.
ReplyDeleteI nominated you for Honest Scrap, though now I realize Cait's mom who picked me picked you too and I see you already did it. So just realize your blog is brilliant and carry on.