Sunday, August 16, 2009

Away

Packing for a holiday we should not be taking is hard. But it is pretty much done now and tomorrow we'll be gone for a couple of days so we can be somewhere, anywhere that is not home. I also believe there will be sunshine. Now that can't hurt.

When we get back, perhaps some of the heaviness of my grief and the rawness of my emotions will settle? I hope so, but who knows. She's still going to be dead. She always will be.

I'll be particularly thinking of Aliza and baby Lev when I'm gone and all they were robbed of this time last year, and wishing Dani a very happy birthday, the same day my baby celebrates her birthday in the stars.

If you find the time, think of my baby when I'm gone. And to repay the favour, I'll think of all of yours, too.
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35 comments:

  1. Carly MarieAugust 16, 2009 at 2:46 PM

    Love you x

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  2. Erika PAugust 16, 2009 at 3:01 PM

    I'm holding you, Simon, and Hope in my heart and my thoughts these next few days. I hope you do have some sunshine, and safe travels.

    Sending lots of hugs...

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  3. AnonymousAugust 16, 2009 at 7:27 PM

    Thinking of you and your beautiful little Hope. I've packed for a vacation that never should have been too, a vacation I would have given anything to give up, and it sucks - especially others' comments about how "great", "fun", etc. it would be. But it was good for us, and I hope you have some nice, peaceful days together with your hubby.

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  4. Catherine WAugust 16, 2009 at 8:27 PM

    I hope there is sunshine for you and Simon. I hope there is some peace on this holiday that shouldn't be.

    I will be thinking of you both, of your sweet baby boy and of Hope Angel.

    Love to you. Catherine xx

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  5. MirneAugust 16, 2009 at 8:36 PM

    I always think of you and Simon and your baby. ((hugs)) for you both.

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  6. RachaelAugust 16, 2009 at 9:27 PM

    We will be thinking of you and holding you close.

    xxx

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  7. SophieAugust 16, 2009 at 9:33 PM

    Thinking of you and Simon and little Thumper... Especially thinking of beautiful, precious Hope and lighting candles for her all week.

    Much love and hugs
    xxxooo

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  8. HeatherAugust 16, 2009 at 9:38 PM

    Thinking of you all every single day, but especially these days.

    Hoping that sun shines for you on your trip.

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  9. AnonymousAugust 16, 2009 at 10:37 PM

    Thinking of Hope, always. xoxo

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  10. MicheleAugust 16, 2009 at 11:22 PM

    Hope is always in my heart. One of the things this community brought me was more babies to think of and love. As long as we all remember, they will all live on in our hearts, always.

    Try to take in some peace on this holiday, even though it is excrutiatingly hard. Hope is with you, even though those around you cant always see that.

    Love and hugs.

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  11. Shannon RyanAugust 17, 2009 at 12:08 AM

    We'll be thinking of your family and sweet Hope on her 1st birthday.

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  12. TAugust 17, 2009 at 1:15 AM

    Sending you so much love and peace for you....

    Carrying Hope in my heart always.

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  13. TinaAugust 17, 2009 at 1:26 AM

    I just returned from a vacation and I too felt like we shouldn't be going. We should be at home with two babies in our arms. It was hard to be there, but I had some fun too. I hope you can find so happiness in your time away. Thinking of you and your sweet Hope.
    xx,
    Tina

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  14. AnonymousAugust 17, 2009 at 1:35 AM

    Thinking of you, Simon, Hope, and this new little life. Enjoy the sunshine, and be gentle on yourselves as you grieve on Hope's birthday.

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  15. AnonymousAugust 17, 2009 at 1:44 AM

    Sally, I hope you have a wonderful time, and I mean that very sincerely. It will be so very sad, but maybe you'll feel the wonder of Hope too. Thinking of you all the time. I'll light a candle for Hope on the 18th xxx

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  16. JulietAugust 17, 2009 at 4:20 AM

    I'll be thinking of you and Hope. I hope you have a sunny holiday.

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  17. BarbaraAugust 17, 2009 at 4:36 AM

    Sally, I'm always thinking of you and Hope and Simon, always wishing you peace and a little more lightness every day.

    Love you

    xxx

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  18. Leila's mommyAugust 17, 2009 at 5:09 AM

    I hope this holiday brings you a little peace and sunshine. and of course, always thinking of the four of you.
    XO

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  19. Dani819August 17, 2009 at 9:31 AM

    Always thinking of Hope, and especially on our birthday. Love to you all.

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  20. KarenAugust 17, 2009 at 11:12 AM

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  21. SaraAugust 17, 2009 at 11:31 AM

    My friend Michelle says that we do not leave our grief behind when we go away but that sometimes the change of scenery reminds us to breathe. Breathe deeply. Thinking of you in the approach.

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  22. k@laklyAugust 17, 2009 at 2:16 PM

    Thinking of you Sally and of Hope, always and especially now. Wishing you gentle days on your heart and kind friends to see you through the next few days.
    Take care of yourself, you deserve it.
    xxoo

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  23. Akul's mamaAugust 17, 2009 at 4:24 PM

    Hugging you and beautiful angel Hope.

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  24. janisAugust 17, 2009 at 5:15 PM

    Thinking of you, Simon and Hope mightily. xo

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  25. AnonymousAugust 17, 2009 at 10:08 PM

    Thinking of you all. I hope that you can find some peace and happiness while away.

    Sending love...

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  26. InannaAugust 17, 2009 at 11:26 PM

    Thinking of you, and Hope.

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  27. LindsayAugust 18, 2009 at 1:24 AM

    I will certainly be thinking of you and Hope. I'm glad you're getting away, although I'm sure it's bittersweet. I hope that you find some peace on Hope's first birthday.
    With love,
    Lindsay

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  28. ericaAugust 18, 2009 at 1:57 AM

    Thinking of you and Hope so hard right now, and sending love. I hope some sunshine finds you and offers a little ease.

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  29. CaraAugust 18, 2009 at 3:32 AM

    Sally - I have really missed you. I am so glad you are taking the time, during this time. I can't belive it is here and I nearly missed remembering with you for the funk I've been in.

    Embrace your husband and your belly as you travel. I will reconnect with you when you return.

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  30. KarenAugust 18, 2009 at 3:52 AM

    I hope the change of scenery does give you and your husband some comfort and peace together. Thinking of both of you, your baby boy, and your beautiful baby girl, Hope. Thought especially of you at Mass today as yours is the first blog I found written by another bereaved mother of a stillborn babe and the 19th is three months since our boy was born sleeping. So offered up lots of prayers. For all bereaved mums and their babies, but especially you and Hope.

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  31. LaniAugust 18, 2009 at 8:03 AM

    thinking of you guys.
    xo

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  32. That Janie GirlAugust 18, 2009 at 10:59 AM

    Came via the Pearsons' blog.

    Sending great thoughts your way - and healing, too, in it's perfect time.

    May peace that passes all understanding settle upon you both this holiday.

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  33. That Janie GirlAugust 18, 2009 at 11:00 AM

    Came via the Pearsons' blog.

    Sending great thoughts your way - and healing, too, in it's perfect time.

    May peace that passes all understanding settle upon you both this holiday.

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  34. Mackenzie's MommyAugust 18, 2009 at 2:52 PM

    Thinking of your beautiful Hope. I'm so sorry this year couldn't have been different. Wishing you some peace at this difficult time.

    xo
    Ashley

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  35. GalAugust 19, 2009 at 12:00 AM

    Thinking of Hope, Sally, and of you and Simon. I hope you are having a peaceful holiday. Much love.

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